letter of apology

dear my dearest,

maybe im the stupid one, ignoring u for a long time, in that day i was fine i was happy i was great i was full-of-jokes but now i regret it... all those days, all those hours, all those minutes, all those seconds was everyting. now....right now im nothing but a pice of cake, im a stupid piece of junk, yes i am. im nothing but a brainless retard, maybe im more than that.and i feel sorry to myself. everyone keep saying that im a shrimpbrain, pothead, pranker, foolish, retard, and many many more.

this breakdown is eating me alive man.i need help, but no one's gonna help me! why? hey i dont have any friends. im uncool okay.im always at home u know.im a dork loser, fat bastard, psychopathic jackass, nerd scum, twinkle douchebag, shitload, sarcastic jerk.aww man am i really that bad? am i really that pathetic? i just cany believe it. im 14 years old and still playin around with someone's heart. who do u think u r tin! u cant just do that, u cant just let that happen to them.

i know, i got F in math always. i hate school, but i love school. (kinda shame) i met u there. first time i fell in love with 'the most wonderful brilliant amazing creature' there. that day, the first time i met, it felt so terrific, i never had felt so alive. even when i have better things to think about, i just keep thinking about u.

ur hazel eyes paralyze my senses. im down with that, i cant stand if u keep staring at me. ure so hot, and its time for me to melt (lyk an ice cube in the summer)

its in the past tin, forget about it

i know its in the past, but why dont we try to fix it huh?

FIX IT? tin r u outta ur (damn) mind? hell no

why not? cmon

tin! ure such a geek, focus on ur future not ur PAST! godammit

i simply cant man, difficult for me to forget past times

geez, u can find new one out there if u want..it cud be fun rite?haha

fun? do u think i can forget sum1 who i love that easy?

hey im just saying, calm down k, relax dude

ahh screw u!

what the heck r u?

me? im a human, u fistful of asshole

okay, im sorry man, didnt mean to do that

......

listen, lets spend our times goofin off? cmon at my crib

huh? okay





(i feel stupid)

it was so dumb, talking to myself is such a creep. i never do this in my entire life. its just because of YOU. awww huhuhu

i dont think that i have the strength to let u go

but this whole time i was wrong, ure not the right fit for me

it seems like if i love you, i shud let u move on

and recently, i feel unhappy and idontknowwhatsupwiththat

one thing think u shud know.....i (still) love u (yaoloh ini norak tp #fact)

i guess this is the end of it, i shud forget u, but its not the end of the world

if i were a mad scientist, i'd like to invent a time machine just for seeing u, really.so i cud roll back the time hahaha.

i'm sorry if my acts means hurting one's heart.
i'm sorry that i, sometimes made wrong decision.
i'm sorry that i, ...dont know what else to say in this letter of apology
i just want you to know that

that

that

"i miss you"

well i guess its not enuff to say im sorry, so i just quit saying sorry

oh i hate myself, im useless worthless brainless eyeless careless, dsb (wkwk dsb)

we better off this way

there were so many choices, but i made my decision

no more loking tin! this shud be it, yes this shud be the end of it

u know i chose u over the others, u just won this heart this mind

i guess it wasnt the wisest decision, but i surely had a good time, and i bet you had one too with me

i wont blame u for anything

i left a note written on paper and marker, not pencil, that says,

"i will be back when the time is right, i will fix you, i will build you, i will take care of you, i will make you stronger, and i will make sure you'll never be lost again, ever"

bye 'you'

take notes that even i wont say again the words "i love you" ever again, i will always still do okay

(god arent u just the sweetest thing in my entire life)

have a good one,
buddy

p.s. bye forever because all i had to say is goodbye