its time to say goodbye

goodbye






take care disana haha mgkn lu gatau smg allah bisikin ke lu the word 'i love you' from me :'), anyway minal aidin walfaidzin ya, pasti lah gue punya salah gamungkin engga hahaha dan kalo boleh jujur disini, i miss kls 8, dulu kan every monday gue selalu liat2an sm lu pas upacara thats why i love monday, but now oh gue buttered selain itu gaada pemandangan yg bs diliat.....sebenernya wkt kls 8 gue pernah nih mikirin kalo kls 9 gaada dia gimana ya, dan ginideh jadinya hahah jd ‘mo’ gt gue hmmm.

gue jg gamau ky gini (selamanya, sebenernya) (mudah2an gadeh) tp cara buat dia jg suka sm gua susah lah, dan gakanpernahbisaseumurhidup. aaa huhu

pas ketemu tuh terakhir kalinya di sekokah,di kantin.....ohgawdy itu bener2 gue speechless yg bener2 (demi allah) berenti jalan berenti berdetak.....seriusan coy sauce!

trus gua nervous pas ada dia...bener2 nervous ga disengajain,dr jauh gue liat lu gt uhuhuhu......ah gamo ngobrolin ah

(nahan perih)

aw aw aw

oke tin just talk with ur hips

lu ati2 ya disana, semoga lu dpt yg JAAUUUUHHH lbh goodlooking dr gue (berasa goodlooking abis sih lu ckck) yagapapa drpd berasa un-goodlooking hahaha bego ah scum!

maaf ya maaf kalo ada salah,ikhlasin aja deh yak >:D


lagian gamungkin kali dia baca ini...haduh gue buttered bgt ini hahhhhhh~

"yaAllah semoga dia diberi keselamatan kesehatan yg lebih yaallah, diberi rejeki melimpah, diberikan kesenangan maupun dunia nyata ataupun dunia tidak nyata dan dunia akhirat yaallah,semoga dia dpt org yg jauh lbh goodlooking dr aku,semoga keluarganyapun diberi keselamatan, ayahnya ibunya kakeknya neneknya adeknya kakaknya dan sodara2nya, semoga dia diberi pencerahan saat dia lagi mengalamain kesusahan, diberi jalan keluar yang lebih mudah disaat semua jalan keluar tertutup rapat dan sangat sulit bagi dia untuk keluar, semoga dia diberi kesabaran yg melimpah yaallah, semoga dia diberikan kehidupan yg jauh jauh jauh lebih baik dari taun lalu yaallah, semoga dia bisa meraih cita2nya dengan sukses yaallah, semoga dia juga bisa dengan bangga mendapatkan apa yg dia mau yaallah dengan hasil kerjanya selama ini.......amin amin amin ya robal alamin”

semoga doanya ga sia2 ya hahahaha

semoga itu ada manfaatnya ada gunanya ada hikmahnya hehehehe

semoga itu ga disalahgunain hohohoho

semoga doanya bisa buat gue ngelupain lu huhuhuhu

(pas tk gua kan paling ditakutin satu sekolah ahhaha jago smack down gt hih sangar, gua aja takut sm gua yg kecil dulu, tp skrg walah gua letoy bgt, cengeng gt ckck gpplah maqlum)

once again goodbye and goodbye and so long! perhaps we’ll meet again in the next life, the brand new life, afterlife or maybe reincarnation oh idontknow.....iloveu i’ll always still do.

letter of apology

dear my dearest,

maybe im the stupid one, ignoring u for a long time, in that day i was fine i was happy i was great i was full-of-jokes but now i regret it... all those days, all those hours, all those minutes, all those seconds was everyting. now....right now im nothing but a pice of cake, im a stupid piece of junk, yes i am. im nothing but a brainless retard, maybe im more than that.and i feel sorry to myself. everyone keep saying that im a shrimpbrain, pothead, pranker, foolish, retard, and many many more.

this breakdown is eating me alive man.i need help, but no one's gonna help me! why? hey i dont have any friends. im uncool okay.im always at home u know.im a dork loser, fat bastard, psychopathic jackass, nerd scum, twinkle douchebag, shitload, sarcastic jerk.aww man am i really that bad? am i really that pathetic? i just cany believe it. im 14 years old and still playin around with someone's heart. who do u think u r tin! u cant just do that, u cant just let that happen to them.

i know, i got F in math always. i hate school, but i love school. (kinda shame) i met u there. first time i fell in love with 'the most wonderful brilliant amazing creature' there. that day, the first time i met, it felt so terrific, i never had felt so alive. even when i have better things to think about, i just keep thinking about u.

ur hazel eyes paralyze my senses. im down with that, i cant stand if u keep staring at me. ure so hot, and its time for me to melt (lyk an ice cube in the summer)

its in the past tin, forget about it

i know its in the past, but why dont we try to fix it huh?

FIX IT? tin r u outta ur (damn) mind? hell no

why not? cmon

tin! ure such a geek, focus on ur future not ur PAST! godammit

i simply cant man, difficult for me to forget past times

geez, u can find new one out there if u want..it cud be fun rite?haha

fun? do u think i can forget sum1 who i love that easy?

hey im just saying, calm down k, relax dude

ahh screw u!

what the heck r u?

me? im a human, u fistful of asshole

okay, im sorry man, didnt mean to do that

......

listen, lets spend our times goofin off? cmon at my crib

huh? okay





(i feel stupid)

it was so dumb, talking to myself is such a creep. i never do this in my entire life. its just because of YOU. awww huhuhu

i dont think that i have the strength to let u go

but this whole time i was wrong, ure not the right fit for me

it seems like if i love you, i shud let u move on

and recently, i feel unhappy and idontknowwhatsupwiththat

one thing think u shud know.....i (still) love u (yaoloh ini norak tp #fact)

i guess this is the end of it, i shud forget u, but its not the end of the world

if i were a mad scientist, i'd like to invent a time machine just for seeing u, really.so i cud roll back the time hahaha.

i'm sorry if my acts means hurting one's heart.
i'm sorry that i, sometimes made wrong decision.
i'm sorry that i, ...dont know what else to say in this letter of apology
i just want you to know that

that

that

"i miss you"

well i guess its not enuff to say im sorry, so i just quit saying sorry

oh i hate myself, im useless worthless brainless eyeless careless, dsb (wkwk dsb)

we better off this way

there were so many choices, but i made my decision

no more loking tin! this shud be it, yes this shud be the end of it

u know i chose u over the others, u just won this heart this mind

i guess it wasnt the wisest decision, but i surely had a good time, and i bet you had one too with me

i wont blame u for anything

i left a note written on paper and marker, not pencil, that says,

"i will be back when the time is right, i will fix you, i will build you, i will take care of you, i will make you stronger, and i will make sure you'll never be lost again, ever"

bye 'you'

take notes that even i wont say again the words "i love you" ever again, i will always still do okay

(god arent u just the sweetest thing in my entire life)

have a good one,
buddy

p.s. bye forever because all i had to say is goodbye